A little bit about me
I have realised, my life up until now may have been difficult but wasn't that bad. Everything could have been a lot worse, and I am grateful for the good things and people in my life. One of the most important lessons I've learnt is to draw strength from every experience. - The fact that you got through it and lived to tell the tale speaks volumes.
My past does not define me, but it has undoubtedly played a part in moulding me into the person I currently am.
Some of these experiences include losing my father at a young age, losing my gran, fighting the heritage I was born with, being diagnosed with ulcerative colitis, and suffering from depression, anxiety, and panic. The cherry on top and the most recent event would be my marriage coming to an end - something I never expected I'd have to go through (but then who does?). I must say, by the time of the divorce I felt battle-hardened and partially immune to the hurt. I guess all the pain had toughened me up to the point where it felt like menial admin.
I see my life as having had a domino effect, which began soon after I turned 12 when I lost my father. For years I struggled to comprehend what had happened. Why did I no longer have a dad when everyone around me still had theirs? Not having a father seemed to impact every aspect of my life.
Things never go back to 'normal' in turn you're forced to find yourself a new normal. The loss left a massive void.
These particular events have brought me to this point and sharing them helps me make sense of it all.